I'm currently living in Kentucky, if you don't remember I've lived in Illinois for my entire life. I would've thought with the way I've been neglecting to type out my words on my phone and without the online games/forums I wouldn't be able to type properly, guess I was wrong. Anyhow, last time I was here it was a year ago? So I was sixteen about to turn seventeen and now I'm going to be eighteen soon. ( Lip piercing you shall be mine ). If you're reading this you're probably wondering, " How am I doing? " well to be honest I don't know how to answer that. I can't say I'm depressed nor can I say I'm happy, maybe I'm peaceful? But weather the case, this place isn't considered home to me. I have no siblings who live out here and I am forever bored and just stay in my room and play video games, such as street fighter 4. ( Now super street fighter 4 ) Which I no longer suck balls at. A round of appluase for me? Eh, fuck you. Anyhow, my mind is always clouded with thoughts, I'm currently also having sexuality problems. At first I thought the feelings I had were simply the lack of self confidence so I just accepted whatever came my way, but now it's something more because I know for a fact I have plenty of self confidence now. People always say, " well which one do you like more? " personally, I'm a picky person ( very ). So to be honest, I don't fucking know. I can say I've had more intense crushes on men then women, but I don't know. Getting off that! School is fucking annoying. I honestly don't like going to school, I know what you're thinking who the fuck likes to go to school? But most people can think of a reason to drag themself out of bed, such as friends, girlfriend, nothing to do, etc. When I went to my 'ghetto' school I made a ton of friends and actually began to enjoy going to school, because I had people to talk to and would've been bored at home. Now I find myself bored as hell and why try to make friends at this point? Most people already have good friends and don't really bother try making more and keep to themselves, not to mention I already come off as a strange person since I don't act like the average african-american. (Sigh) It's whatever though, complaining won't get me anywhere, I live with my mom again and now I'm living a good life and have alot of extra shit, I just need to find something here ( kentucky ) that will make me find myself at home with this place. Maybe this should be my resolution. Find a crew, Find peace. :] Isn't that a lifetime resolution? Eh, fuck it. Just as long as I feel comfortable I'll be fine. Anyway I have school tomorrow and it's almost monday here in Kentucky. Just needed to let some energy out so I thought I blog about it, not that anyone comes to this page anymore. :P Kaythxbye - Shaquille. xoxo
Dead? NOT A CHANCE IN HELL
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
7:21 PM
So in case you're wondering, I haven't been on msn in a while. I don't really see a reason in going on it because most people who do go on it, I usually don't talk to. I also quit playing online video games since it seems like no one cool or entertaining plays them, have you seen how many fucking people are on maple story? It's like runescape, god forbid that I have to remind you how pact up runescape was. In anycase, I don't really think I will be returning to Audition, I'm not that good at it nor do I really care for it. These days I mostly focus on my school work and just try to get a job but unfortunately I am not looking hard enough because I get sleepy after school. Imagine the pain I will be through trying to stay awake during work, but that's besides the point, I want money and I need it to get what I want, when I want(as if that dosen't already happen).
Yes, I admit and announce that I am spoiled to the max and get almost everything that I desire from my father and mother, including unlimited phone calls and text messaging. Though at the moment my mother has forgotten to pay the bill and I have to make a phone call whining about how she forgot to pay the bill, god knows she does this every fucking time. How hard is it to remember?! YOU PAID YOUR BILL WHY NOT MINE?! Okay, I'll quit that. Anyway, I spend most of my time on gaiaonline or the playstation 3 online, if you have one you may hit me up on my account being Internal existence. Yeah, I like the word internal. Wanna fight about it?
WHO ART THOU GOD?!
Friday, September 18, 2009
7:13 PM
FUCK MY LIFE. So yesterday, I'm at the tennis court and I whooped some major ass! Then I go to jump over the net being cocky and my big ass foot gets stuck on the fucking net, and I trip and slap my face into concrete. My school being scared of a law suit forced me to go to the hospital where I was stuck with many needles, because the guy obviously didn't know how to get blood or something. You know that they put in you and links to a water bag? That is the most uncomfortable thing I've ever felt, it's just in you're veins, it felt like someone stabbed a fork in my hand and left it there and I'm just sitting there like, " please get this shit off my hand " but no. After I dealt with waiting a billion years to get my brained scanned, I had to get laughed at by everyone in my family as the right side of my face is swollen and looks like half of my face is stuffed with a double cheese burger. Speaking of Mc donald's my asshole grandpa takes me to Mc donalds afterwards and buys me fries which have salt in them, while my right cheek is full of wounds because when I fell two of my teeth raped my right cheek. Yes I did eat them because I'm a fat ass, but know that it stung like hell. Now my face is fine and I feel great, although its hard to eat some things because my cheek is still a little swollen though you cannot notice it from the outside, unless I'm smiling because then it looks like I have a extra muscular dimple.
In anycase, I haven't spoken to many these days. Except Kenta, we had a whole night discussion about god and jesus, just making points about shit. It all started when I said homosexuality isn't considered sin in the bible and soon all went to hell as we just began talking about the weight of sin and so on. Who knew Kenta was so religious? I think I'm done with audition, lol. Funny how everyone gets bored with it as soon as season 2 comes out. But it's boring as fuck, nobody but teenage whores go on that shit. Oh wait this is a blog. . and my father is here, I'll be gone for the weekend over a friends. PEACE!
Oh god, here it comes.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
9:08 PM
Alright so I missed another day, my bad. I'll tell ya what happened, so I was on audi and my dad takes me to the store and I was fucking up his credict card so hard I could hear it screaming. LOL, Kidding, credict cards don't scream but if they could this one would be. I was buying alot of shit is what I'm trying to say, I got like four expensive as shirts with a pair of pants to go with em` and of course I had to grab some jordans to the side for the first day of school, sorry it's a black thing. Oh if you're wondering, I bought the shirts from pac-sun and the pants at Zumiez, I say they're the same store since they sell the same shit pretty much but eh, I do like Zumiez better. And now that I told you the stores I don't wanna hear any shit like, " OMG SHAQ YOU'RE SO GHETTO YOU BOUGHT JORDANS " fuck off bitches because I like my styling shoes. Converse make a size 7 look like a giant dildo that could fight a fucking elephant, didn't I say something like that last blog? Who know's. Anyway I wear a size fourteen, so imagine me in some fucking converse which already look as big as fuck. Oh my god, when we bought the fucking shoes this rude ass fucker goes, " damn these are some big shoes here " and he's ringing up the shoes! Fuck off hater, you're just mad cause you know what the ladies say about big feet.
So afterward's I go over my best friend Marco's house and enjoy the night with some Street Fighter and games. The next day, meaning saturday we go to his family reunion which he didn't tell me shit about so we head over there, with a fucking ps3 and xbox 360 because another friend of mine named Keith came over marco's and went with us to the family reunion with his ps3, I leave mine at home. So we go there thinking we would have a good time but the damn projector is broken or some shit and we can't play shit or even do anything but toss around a fucking football, I was doing perfectly fine at it but to me playing foot ball is annoying and down right boring, maybe it was because that's all we fucking did that day! The best part of the whole thing was when I got Marco's cousin Sparkle to give us a little alcohol well it was redbull and vodka, so yeah. . . When we got back to the house I just fell out because his house was fucking cold as hell. The next day I call my dad telling him to pick me up, I called him at like 10 a.m. he comes at 5 p.m all extra fucking late. The whole time I was waiting I played, resident evil and ddr. We were fucking destroying in resident evil 5 on one of the hardest stages, so hard eventually the zombies quit respawning for awhile and we were like, " what the fuck? Where'd everyone go? " lol. Once I came home I just got back on to see what drama would pop up on the online world. Nessa and Kenta got coupled, I wonder if I should be happy, Kenta is my best friend but I feel like he dosen't care for Nessa one bit and I feel bad for her but don't wanna cause anything. I regret but I told him Lisah liked him because he kept asking why she was mad at him and he claims he didn't notice, I don't regret because it's lisah's privacy though.
I regret it because if she did couple Kenta I know he would only use her like a trophy to show around. Something I wouldn't be able to stand for. Though it's not like I would have a choice if it happened.
The man, everyone wants.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
8:49 PM
He's back and already taking back his place on Audition, yep I'm talking about Kenta.So I wake up this morning and go on Audition hanging out with Ry and Sena, I could've probably coupled Ry but someone was all like ' noo don't couple ' who is now considered a hater in my books. Although I got out of it because Ry was annoying the fuck out of me talking his big shit and all that other shit. So I'm talking about Nessa to them and how's she has been following me around and as soon as the game ends guess who's sitting there in the watch zone? NESSA! So then we go and hang and whatnot with other people, eventually Ry goes into asshole mode and needs to leave the room to go fucking get the dildo out his ass. So then while we're playing the almighty Kenta messages me saying 'sup', so we talk and stuff he's just getting off the airplane. No i will not tell you what we talked about unless you're cool with me like that and I know you can STFU, but certain people you never know might be on this shit and will go to being all emo and whatnot. But In general we just talk about how the summer was and I tell him I've been hanging out with Flow in general.
LOL Kenta's mom locked the computer and whatnot, so Kenta was having a hard time trying to get onto the computer. I guess because he's on the computer too much for his own good, ha tell me something I haven't heard. When I get on audition I see Kenta on and I stalk em` to say what's up and he already coupled britt, though that lasted 5 minutes before it ended. So we go couple hunting and Moe comes in and pretty much fucking makes the whole room a fucking gay club. Boys with the dirtiest fucking names like, masturbate, lubricate and shit are coming in and Moe is just talking about gay sex, gay sex, gay fucking sex. I'm playing along like yeah. . . gay sex. . . awesome? Then eventually I had to get em` out of there and kick him. He was talking way to fucking much and we were trying to get couples. In the end I coupled some random black chick with nexon, lol. She seems pretty hyper though, oh god please don't let it be true. LOL She lagged when I hit the couple button so I come back to the room and am like " Martini/Kenta, I'm never taking advise from you again ", since they told me to hit the cpl button then like 5 minutes later the congratulations bar pops up and we all laugh. Monday I go back to school, don't forget it. During school I'll probably be online still since alot of things are going through my life and I may not be living close to my school and etc. Won't make any promises though. By the way, why does everyone have summer home work? I get new teachers every semester, so when someone says I have summer homework I'm just like ' What The Shit? '.
LOL Catch you guy's later.
Shaquille.
[P.S: I added some more music to the playlist, enjoy?]
What The Shit?
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
8:15 PM
Alright, so today was very interesting. I got into another arguement with my dad, my brother was cleaning up the bathroom since he fucked it up with tooth paste and shit. So I could told em` to rinse the towel since he sprayed to much fucking whatever he used on it and my dad say's some slick shit to me about I don't know how to clean. LOL, I had to tell him off then about how I had cleaned the entire fucking house and came back from a friends to find the shit destroyed and not one dish cleaned, " we weren't here to pick it up " so I immediatly had to come back with, " but you were here to fuck it up " I'm such a ass. My dad never cleans the fucking house so don't feel bad for him. Don't get the wrong idea the house isn't nasty, it gets cleaned everyday just by me. If I'm not here though it gets fucked up n` shit.
Alright so let's move onto the online world, so I pissed off Ry, LOL. We we're argueing and shit like we usually do and Ry tries treating me with you're so gay Yoshi, blah, blah, you suck at audi. So eventually I just went along with it and told him, " Sorry I stole your boyfriend in third grade " LOL I think that's my new quote. That's when his spirit started to go down and eventually he flew out the room in anger, love you Ry xD. So later on I'm looking at america's best dance crew on youtube, more like just watching quest crew cause I love one of the members in it. That on guy with the mohawk like hair, I love his hair I won't even lie he's my dream guy. Alright something that isn't gay, so after watching quest crew I think of flow and how we chill and felt like going on. So I go on, stalk Sena, Nessa stalks me, we get our groove on and have a load of laughs and shit. I was actually enjoying my time on audi and then this fucking dork came in accusing Nessa's friend of hacking and shit. So everyone was like can you please Shut The Fuck Up? Cause honestly nobody gives a fuck if he is or not and I didn't really think he was, like go to a diffrent room if you're suspicious? Anyway so we go off cause he killed the mode and guess what? Lisah dump's me, LOL. She said we don't click, which is true. Lisah is very quiet and dosen't take pride in herself alot, which leads to alot of ackward moments and whatnot so I'm like eh, though she's still pretty fucking awesome. I mean check out the profile, yeah Lisah production bitches. LOL Cause now that I thing about it I told Sena not to long ago before she dumped me if this didn't work out I was going to try to find a guy to go out with, watch she'll hold me to it now. Not that I care.
Kenta comes back soon and couldn't be happier, no fucking twat's who keep saying 'omg you n Kenta should cpl ' for fucking christ Kenta is like my best friend on audi and online period. We click but we don't click like that, though we help each other find some people who could click with us like that, if ya get what I mean. Anyhow my favorite my manga D. Grayman is back up and running after waiting for fucking the whole summer, lol I know I'm a nerd but I love that manga. Continueing after I got dumped, I then got on this vent thing with Nessa and started talking shit and whatnot for laughs. LOL How many times have I said whatnot? Btw Nessa isn't as bold as she is online, you know how she's all like MOFO, BITCH, TRICK,etc. Pssh bitch don't got shit when it comes to the mic! If you're wondering I talk exactly how I type, probably because I type whatever is in my mind which can lead to me going to far alot but eh. I met this guy name quixx while being on vent he had a fucking sweet accent. Overall this day was eh, I don;t know how I feel about being dumped. . . it's like now I'm just blank. Eh some emo music will fix that. Anyway That's the day for ya.
No Meat!?
Monday, August 17, 2009
6:58 PM
If you're wondering about the title, I don't got nothing with alot of meat and am gonna break some shit apart if I don't get something that does. The day was pretty decent, I hung out with Lisah before she left on vacation even though it sucks that she's leaving, but oh well. Alot of people we're online today and I actually talked to that guy on audition called Danse, or known as Alan, thought he always hated me and Lisah tricked me into beliving it even more. Overall the day was alright I guess, I'm gonna try to get over to Marco's house tomorrow since I've been stuck inside all this time and I'm tired of babysitting Kevon. In case you're confused Marco is my best friend and Kevon is my little brother who needs a fucking babysitter who isn't me.
I got the profile sorta going on, sorta. Lisah was suppose to help but she was busy on audi, so I gotta wait untill thursday and I just learned today was monday when Sena said it was tuesday earlier today, you suck Sena.
